It’s funny how one word can change everything. You never really think about it; never really consider it until it’s said and done. That one instant can change your perspective, your mood, your outlook.
Alone.
Alone.
A l o n e .
I was talking to my mum tonight, as all my friends were preparing for a night out. We were discussing why I wasn’t joining in the fun. It’s orientation week, after all. That’s what the whole week is about; going out and having fun. So why wasn’t I going?
“I’m just feeling weird.” That was my excuse. I couldn’t think of anything else to say but I didn’t need to. Apparently mothers know these things.
“You’re feeling alone, aren’t you?” Her answer came in the form of a question but she didn’t need to hear my reply, she already knew. Apparently mothers know these things.
Alone.
Here I sit, in my house, alone on a Monday night.
My mother couldn’t be more right. I don’t think it would matter if I was surrounded by people or if I was sitting in my bed while my friends partied without me. I am feeling like the loneliest person on the planet right now.
One word is all it takes. It’s that simple. One word shatters the perfect illusion that you were trying to hold up. That even in a city full of people, a lecture full of people, a house full of friends; I didn’t feel alone.
But I do. I really, really do.
i love your posts.
Posted by Karinkirari | February 26, 2013, 1:21 amThank you so much, it means so much to me! I love hearing things like this!
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 2, 2013, 9:07 amI REALLY understand what you are going through because I started a new school and I have those lonely moments:) Hang in there…I promise you that in a month things will be different:)
Xoxo
Posted by lihle21 | February 26, 2013, 3:02 amThings are already different now! Things are actually really good! I love my school, my new house, my flatmates and my new friends! It’s like everything’s done a complete 180 in the past week. It’s brilliant!
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 2, 2013, 9:07 amReblogged this on Life of a Teenage Girl.
Posted by marihamdy | February 26, 2013, 8:22 amFirst things first, love your blog. It’s so honest and relatable! I completely understand what you’re going through. I recently found out that some of my friends were talking about me behind my back. I felt in other words, alone. It really sucked. Things get better though. I’m not just saying that, I swear
Posted by Frances | February 26, 2013, 11:37 amThank you so much, that means a lot to me! :] I never really know if someone likes my blog or not since I’m just winging it 99% of the time! It almost seems to be paying off though :’]
I’m sorry that your friends were doing that though, that’s an awful thing for them to do. Things definitely do get better – it just takes a little time :]
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 2, 2013, 9:06 amI know how you feel, By the way I followed your blog, I really love your posts xox
Posted by wonderlandwish | February 27, 2013, 10:35 amI wasn’t feeling too good when I wrote that post but it seems like I’ve done a complete 180 now, so that’s good! :] Thank you so much, that really means a lot to me! I’ll definitely check out your blog! :]
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 2, 2013, 9:04 amreally understandable and i can most def relate. just hang in there (:
Posted by Nikki | February 27, 2013, 12:20 pmIt got better – a lot better! I’m loving it now, I guess it was just the shock of moving and everything changing. It’s good now though so I’m not going to look at it too closely :]
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 2, 2013, 9:03 amI struggle with bouts of depression, which just means that sometimes I have blocks of a month or two where I just feel so depressed and alone. Until it runs it’s course there’s really nothing I can do- it usually stems out of feeling lonely. Even when I’m with people, I feel alone, just as you were saying. Give it time, try to get out of the house as much as you can, you’ll be feeling better soon! (:
Posted by justonegirl | March 1, 2013, 9:44 amIt’s not a good feeling at all! :[ I'm actually feeling better already! It was just hard adjusting to being in a new city, new school and making new friends. It was all a bit overwhelming and I guess it really hit me how much life is going to change when I wrote that post. I can honestly say that I'm loving it now! College is much, much better than high school :']
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 2, 2013, 9:01 ami’m so sorry
You’ll be Okay though
Posted by mythicalmonster | March 2, 2013, 7:13 amI think I was just having a “down” moment because I love it here now! I don’t feel alone and I LOVE all my classes! I can honestly say that life is pretty good right now :’]
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 2, 2013, 8:59 amI would love if you guys checked my blog! andrecarrascosa.blogspot.com
Posted by Andrea | March 4, 2013, 1:24 amI will definitely check it out! Thanks for leaving a link :]
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 5, 2013, 9:51 pmI feel exactly the same except that I have no friends. I have the greatest family but that doesn’t help me everyday at school. Alone is the definition of my life
Posted by Chloe | March 13, 2013, 3:54 pmAw, I’m sorry it’s like that! :/ I’m sure you’ll find a great group of friends soon! :] It’ll happen when you least expect it :]
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 14, 2013, 9:30 amAlone. The definition of my life atm. I have the greatest family but currently no real friends at school. I’m waiting for things to get better. Still waiting
Posted by Lonelygirl1995 | March 13, 2013, 3:56 pmKeep waiting, it’ll happen. I promise. Maybe not today or tomorrow but it WILL. Good things come to those who wait :’]
Posted by xjustanotherteenblogger | March 14, 2013, 9:29 am